Notes of a part time male slave
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I've been out about most of my sexuality as life as led me to each new self-discovery. And happily documented my newfound sexualities on various websites. Except for one thing.
I'm a masochist. And a 'slave.'
Several months ago with my new lover I finally began to explore my sadomasochistic streak.
I'm a pain slut. The feel of a single tail, cane, quirt, flogger cutting into my skin gives me great pleasure. Yes, it hurts but the pain transmutes into a species of ecstasy.
Groveling on the floor gives me joy.
She's crushed food on the floor and ordered me to lick it up. Taken me naked and leashed into my backyard.
Wrenching moments to live through. The afterglow persists for days.
No, it doesn't make me less a man.
Nor less a person: it is another form of self-individualization.
Some people call this Femdom. Too much trash has accumulated about that term for me to warm to it. I prefer Woman Worship (and being pansexual I could as easily 'worship' a man).
Though my lover is a transsexual she is as truly a girl to me as she would be had the genetic lottery given her more traditionally female anatomy.
While I employ a heady word like worship it is a form of play. Not that play isn't something to take seriously. What could be more important that the things that make us happy?
For some months I've maintained a weblog about the D/s part of our relationship (which most of the time is traditionally romantic).
I invite you to see me Down On My Knees.
Comments
Richard
First of all, congratulations on the happiness you seem to be living - from someone who is also happy to worship a woman.
An also on your new blog. But I have to say there may be a problem with it. Many times my PC has to shut down when I try to access it.
Posted by: Marcos | June 27, 2005 9:07 PM
I’m very lucky in having found someone loving and smart to explore D/s with.
Do you get any specific error message on Down On My Knees? It uses the same template for the most part as all my sites but I’d like to track down what is blocking you and probably others.
Posted by: Richard | June 28, 2005 8:17 AM
nothing new to say. just want you to know that i’m so glad that you’re holding down the forte. i don’t find too many cool blogs from the male submissive perspective. i sincerely hope you have many more adventures that inspire you to write. maybe you’ll inspire more male submissives to come out and write about their experiences too.
Posted by: laura | July 2, 2005 2:49 AM